About Me

Disclaimer: I know this post is long, but if you're interested in learning about me as a person and understanding the way I operate, you'll bare with me.

I’ve had a lot of this on my heart over the past few weeks, but I haven’t had the physical time, or motivation, to blog them. College can be very draining at times. School’s been back in session for less than a month and I can already feel its wrath.
While this past summer was spent predominantly working and taking classes, I feel like a lot of personal growth took place. Thinking in retrospect, my coming in contact with others and helping other’s personal gain forced me to lot about myself. I present to you, in list form, a non-comprehensive list of lessons learned this summer:

1. I have a general interest in aiding and improving those who I hold close to my heart, as well as those who I feel a strong connection to. I tend to do this through offering advice, spending money, and encouraging those that I love: even if it wasn’t requested. On the not so positive side, I have the proclivity to critique and criticize my loved ones in an effort to “save” them from making “mistakes.”

2. I do an excellent job at communicating with other people, especially through writing; however, my challenge is expressing matters of the heart. Often I discount, withhold, and even choose to not express these matters.

3. As much as I enjoy not being tied down, I need organization. I have the absolute, utmost hate for disorganized and last minute productions. They urk my soul.

4. I have a basic disrespect for those that consistently judge and critique without offering some sort of alternate plan. Moreover, I have a hard time dealing with those that cannot communication their thoughts and ideas.

5. I’m stubborn and persistent. This can be a dangerous combination, under the correct circumstances. I have a strong dislike for the word “no.” When I have my heart set on something, and my mind is made up, I’ll do anything to get what I want. I continue to pursue whatever it is that I want until I’m satisfied, and often ignore others feelings in the process.

6. I have a general like of the “good things” that life yields. While I do hold other things, such as personal connections and socialism, highly: I thoroughly enjoy material things. Clothing and electronic devices are my weakness.

7. For me, music is a motivating force. It provides me with energy and easily changes my mood and tempo. I love music of all kinds, and turn to it to help me express the things that my words cannot. (Note: If I’ve ever randomly given you a CD, I was trying to express something to you.)

8. I have a ridiculous amount of sexual energy in my system and it’s causing distress in my life. Sex is always on my mind and seems to come up quite frequently. The distress comes from suppressing the energy, and not having a consistent outlet for it. Masturbation is getting old and, for me, sex without an emotional connection is moot. I have a general want to sexually fulfill those I have a passion for, but when that doesn’t exist I’m pretty much fending for myself... if you catch my drift.

9. My current challenge, which seems to be insurmountable, is to find someone that’ll love me as much as I love them. I do realize that I have high expectations for my future significant other; however, they aren’t unrealistic. Can I not have a hood rat? Moreover, all too frequently do I encounter people that shove me in the “brother” category, who are generally not interested, or those who want to hit it and quit it. I’m starting to become frustrated and sort of bitter. Why do tools, athletes, unproductive males, thugs, and unfit men continue to produce, while I’m sitting here by myself? I continue to hear ladies complain about how they want someone to love and care for them, but then they always choose those who fall in one of the previously acknowledged categories. Or, you’ll get a person that continues to stay in a relationship because they’re personally gaining something or because they’re scared to leave. I’m so tired of this bullshit.

10. I don’t like to be rushed or forced to do things. Ask me, encourage me, suggest to me, but never force me. I have a problem when people force me to do things, or when a timetable is set that I feel is unreasonable. Things will happen when I want them to happen, at my suggested frequency.

11. When I get mad, it’s all over!! I’m a happy person. I enjoy living and taking part in life. There are a few triggers that can set off my anger; however, it is usually set off by an individual that consistently bothers me over time. With that said, if I don’t like you (and I clearly differentiate between those I don’t care for and those I REALLY don’t like) I won’t have the slightest regard for you. In my mind, it’s not worth it. No, I don’t respect you. No, I won’t help you. No, you cannot.

Cater 2 U

Cater
Originally uploaded by TheDooley

So, I found an old memory card that I use to use for a camera that I once owned. The photos that I found on it were very interesting. All of them from from my Lathrup days (boo), except for a few. One thing I personally enjoyed was a silly video I made with a few friends. We were bored and parked in a Krispy Kreme parking lot. This is what ensued. My rendition of "Cater 2 U" by Destiny's Child.

See the resemblance? Cater 2 U Official Video

Dreams: Dancing

I've been doing a lot of thinking about this. I'm not quite sure why it's been on my mind, nor am I sure why I can't shake this thought.

Ever since I was a young kid, I've wanted to dance. For as far as I can remember, dancing, and the love of music, has been in my spirit. I wonder why I've never made any strides toward becoming a member of a dance crew or something. Presently, I may not be able to move like Shane Sparks or Wade Robson, but I certainly believe that I have the capacity to learn. I like to think that I'm kinesthetically blessed. Thinking in retrospect, I've always had a "knack" for dancing and movement. I remember myself, as a kid, running around the house, jammin' to MC Hammer, Prince, Michael Jackson, or whomever else my Mom or Aunt had on. I've always danced at parties, clubs, and family gatherings. Rhythm based gaming has been in my life for years... Shoot, I knew how to do five renditions of the hustle before I turned 11. It really perplexes me as to why I've never acted on this. I feel like I should make it a priority.

New Kids On The Block...Fo' real!?!?

I'm speechless! I was looking for new music on iTunes and realized that "New Kids On The Block" is releasing a new album. Here's the kicker: it's not what you would expect from them. They've shed their old persona; eliminated the old skool, boy band, 90's demeanor. These are grown men. Look at the transformation:


New Kids On The Block - Step By Step


New Kids On The Block - Single


New Kids On The Block - Summertime

Shocking, right? I had to pick my mouth up off the floor. Where did all this soul come from? LOL. It's nice to see groups like this still around. Perhaps they can give some tips to these wannabe, one hit wonder, cookie cutter, artists. NKOTB's new CD drops a week from today: Sep 2nd. You can pre-order it on iTunes, just like I did.

Memories

Many people don't know this about me, but I was a BIG MC Hammer fan back in the day. My and my cousin, Darien, would be in my Grandma's kitchen jammin'. Today I was surfing YouTube and came across this music video. I know ya'll remember this!


MC Hammer - Bump in a Bump

How you gon' try and be hard in a banana hammock? LOL.

Also:
Salt N' Pepa - Shoop

Ya'll remember when Bill Nye remixed this?